Y’all. The past two years have been a doozy.
I am so grateful to be out here in Los Angeles, living my dream life and pursuing an acting career. Living here has truly been a blessing, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. However, I have found myself falling into more frequent dark depressions than ever before. Often, these will be the result of extreme highs, like coming off of set for a month… or they’ll be at the hands of personal tragedy, like dealing with the loss of a loved one. Each time I fall into one of these “funks”, I always manage to dig myself out and tell myself, “Never again!” And yet, each time, I find myself here again.
In a desperate attempt to rewrite the narrative, I am writing this blog to explore my feelings and habits that lead to these life ruts. In a way, it’s therapy… but really, it’s me reaching out to others. It’s me reaching out and asking, “Am I alone here? Anyone else tired of feeling like crap?”
Thanks to the encouragement of my friends and family, I am feeling better already! Turns out, a lot of them are also experiencing a “funk”. Turns out, this isn’t a weird thing. Then why, WHY, don’t people discuss it more? Why do we hide behind our emojis and pretend to be happy when all we want to do is curl up in bed and watch Netflix?
I’m not a doctor… but I know people who are pretty rad that help pull me out of my dark days. Maybe, just maybe… I can uncover the secret to happiness.
At the very least, I’ll introduce you to a new ice cream flavor with less calories or something.
(It’s the little things.)